I must say that I’m really overwhelmed by all the love that was shown to me yesterday on Mother’s Day. I had several people send me the sweetest emails, texts, and Facebook messages wishing me a happy Mother’s Day and claiming faith that our littles are on their way. Those messages really made the day so much better. Honestly, even though going through the infertility issues that we are going through is the hardest thing I have ever faced, I’m so incredibly grateful for the testimony we have and the lives that we have been able to minister to through our story. Even though I’m so ready for our littles to be in our arms already, I have to say that I’m truly excited to see how God takes this heartache and turns it into something for his glory. I can already see him working in mighty and amazing ways I could never fathom. From the very beginning Aaron and I have had the goal to tell our story to inspire and encourage others in whatever trials and heartaches they are going through. It was a leap of faith to share our struggles but I honestly feel that taking that step has led me to a healing process in my life…to a peaceful place in my life…a place where I can, “Be still and know he is God.”
Wow, friends. That’s God’s total amazing grace, right there. That attitude and that heart…that’s all God’s doing. It’s most certainly nothing I could do on my own. To be able to talk to someone about how much I desire to be a mom but to still be able to truthfully say, “God is so very, very good” and mean it with all of my heart…That’s something only God can do. Our story, even though we’re still waiting, is such a testimony on how God can mold and mend our hearts through all of the heartache. I’m ready to be a mom but I’m so honored not only that God will trust me some day to raise some little nuggets to follow him, but that he trusts me to go through this “meantime” and still give him glory. I’m speechless.


Well, since I’m speechless I’ll share some pictures. I have the most amazing husband who made it his top priority for me to have a good weekend. He worked all day Saturday then as soon as he got off of work he went to the grocery store and picked up supplies to make dinner. He came home and immediately began fixing dinner – jalapeño grilled cheese! Sister here loves a grilled cheese something fierce so when he saw this recipe on The Sandwich King he decided to give it a try. I’ll share that recipe and more pictures soon!


Then after dinner I asked him out on a coffee date just to get out of the house, to enjoy some coffee, and to have some quality time talking. Truthfully with our schedules we haven’t really had some intense, soul searching conversation in a long time and we could feel a little bit of a distance. You know that feeling? It’s tough. So it’s important to calibrate every once in a while and just set aside all distractions, go out on a date, and have a deep, heartfelt discussion that doesn’t include kids, work, or venting about life. Just enjoy each other. And we did…I found this on Pinterest and used it as a template to get to talking! It was great!


Then Sunday morning I had decided to skip church and spend my morning at home focusing my energy on other things. Aaron surprised me by skipping with me and waking up to fix me a surprise breakfast! Apparently he had been searching all week for a breakfast recipe to make me on Sunday morning and decided to give a blueberry French toast bake a try. Seriously, the boy searched all week for the perfect breakfast to make me! I really have an amazing guy!
I would have taken pictures of us eating the delicious breakfast Aaron made but it was 8am which means boxers for him and no bra or makeup for me. That hardly seems photo appropriate…you’re welcome for not sharing pictures like that on my blog. I don’t want to scare you away.
I also wanted to share this that I read yesterday about Mother’s Day:
“I do want to try to explain my evolving definition of the word Mother. I am starting to understand that the word works better for me as a verb than a noun. Mothering is a choice we make, like loving is a choice. We do not need to have given birth or to have signed adoption papers to Mother. To Mother, to me, means to nurture. To heal, to help grow, to give. And so anyone and everyone who is involved in the healing of the world is a Mother. Anyone who tends to a child, or friend, or stranger, or animal or garden is a Mother. Anyone who tends to Life is a Mother. Today is a celebration of all the healers and hopers and lovers and givers and tend-ers. In other words- today is for every single one of you.”
I thought that was so incredibly beautiful and describes exactly what is on my heart.
How was your weekend? I’ve been thinking and praying for all of you out there who might have had a rough time on Mother’s Day. Know that you are loved and have a beautiful purpose!
by Hannah
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